The AutSide Podcast

• Episode 448: Talking and Memory Integrity for Gestalt Processors

  Today’s episode explores the function of speech for gestalt language processors (GLPs), arguing that talking is primarily a form of memory integrity and maintenance, rather than mere recall or rumination. The author of the source article, Dr. Jaime Hoerricks, posits that speaking aloud helps keep complex, atmospheric, and relational memories whole over time, preventing them from hardening or fracturing, especially following trauma or narcissistic abuse. Furthermore, the act of talking together provides mutual verification, which anchors internal coherence to external reality, acting as a crucial structural support against gaslighting and isolation. This continued speech is reframed as resistance to erasure and an ethical act of repair, challenging the common therapeutic misreading that views repetition as a sign of being stuck.Here’s the link to the source article: https://open.substack.com/pub/autside/p/talking-as-a-form-of-memory-integrityLet me know what you think.The AutSide is a reader-supported publication. To support my work, consider becoming a paid subscriber. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit autside.substack.com/subscribe

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• Episode 447: Gestalt Cognition, Trauma, and the Refusal of the Diagnostic Fork

  Today’s episode presents a careful examination of the perceived binary between trauma and gestalt cognition, arguing that choosing between these two explanations for a mind’s functioning is a “trap” that fails to capture complexity, especially in AuDHD GLPs. The author of the source article, Jaime Hoerricks, PhD, who is an AuDHD gestalt processor and parent, asserts that gestalt cognition is the fundamental “architecture” of the GLP mind, which exists first, whilst trauma acts as “weather” that strains or shapes that existing structure without creating it. She grants parents “permission” to trust coherence and respond with “relational steadiness” rather than seeking a definitive, single cause or pathologising difference simply because it does not fit linear, analytic models. Ultimately, Dr. Hoerricks advocates for shifting from seeking “origin stories” to understanding the “interaction” between innate cognitive structure and lived experience.Here’s the link to the source article: https://open.substack.com/pub/autside/p/is-this-traumaor-is-this-how-my-mindLet me know what you think.The AutSide is a reader-supported publication. To support my work, consider becoming a paid subscriber. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit autside.substack.com/subscribe

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• Video Episode 01: GLP and Safety

  In this week’s episode, Cathy and I explore how autistic gestalt language processors experience memory not as recall, but as whole return. Drawing on recent writing and lived experience, we examine why past experiences can arrive all at once, how safety governs integration, and why talking is not rumination—but memory integrity.Across these two essays and this week’s conversation with Cathy, I’m circling a single correction—one that feels increasingly urgent the more I watch autistic experience get misread. What returns for me is never a fragment in need of completion. It is a whole in search of conditions. My memory does not move by chronology or narrative recall; it moves by pattern. The body recognises the geometry of a situation long before language is invited to comment. When something arrives “all at once,” it is not because I am overwhelmed or dysregulated, but because fidelity has been triggered—my system honouring what it has already lived.In When the Past Arrives All at Once, I tried to show how this recognition happens before consent, before explanation. The past does not intrude—it recognises. A present moment rhymes too closely with an old configuration, and the whole of that earlier knowing steps forward intact. From the outside, this can look like panic. From the inside, it is coherence. The body is not malfunctioning; it is issuing a warning in the only temporal grammar it trusts. Language comes later, if it comes at all.Whole-Memory Processing gave me the language to name what that “whole” is made of. My memories are not filed as scenes or facts but held as dense ecologies—sensation, affect, posture, relational weather, meaning—bound together and stored intact. When they return, they cannot be drip-fed into speech. They arrive pressurised. The work is not calming down or breaking things apart, but translation: stretching simultaneity into sequence without tearing the fabric of the experience. When I talk, I am not venting. I am decompressing. Each sentence releases just enough pressure to keep coherence intact.The podcast conversation makes something else unmistakably clear to me: safety governs everything. These whole returns are not random, and they are not a sign that something is “coming back” because it wasn’t dealt with. They arrive because conditions have finally stabilised enough to allow them. Housing security. Professional tenure. Relational trust. When survival is no longer on the line, the system risks integration. Only then does memory step forward and say, here—this too needs to be carried into the present.Taken together, this work is my refusal of the dominant story about intensity, repetition, and delay. What psychiatry calls rumination, I recognise as maintenance. What others call overreaction, I experience as temporal congestion—multiple intact nows competing for the same present moment. There is nothing broken in this. Coherence does not emerge through force, neatness, or speed. It emerges when safety is real, when talking is allowed to be slow and circular, and when memory is permitted to remain whole long enough to soften into words.Referenced articles: * Whole-Memory Processing: When the Past Arrives All at Once: https://autside.substack.com/p/whole-memory-processing-when-the* When the Past Arrives All at Once: Autistic Memory, Pattern Recognition, and the Myth of “Overreaction”: https://autside.substack.com/p/when-the-past-arrives-all-at-onceSee you next week.The AutSide is a reader-supported publication. To support my work, consider becoming a paid subscriber. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit autside.substack.com/subscribe

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• Episode 446: Whole-Memory Processing—Trauma and Gestalt Knowing

  Today’s episode outlines the concept of Gestalt Memory in the context of trauma, particularly for gestalt language processors (GLPs). The author of the source article, Dr. Jaime Hoerricks, argues that for GLPs, trauma is not stored in linear, manageable pieces but as a simultaneous, compressed whole—a “system” of sensation, meaning, and relational context that floods the body upon recall. This perspective challenges the dominant “analytic” model of memory processing, which assumes that healing requires breaking down experience into sequential parts. Dr. Hoerricks contends that the intensity and nonlinearity of the memory flood is often misframed as overreaction or dysregulation; instead, it represents the density of meaning that must be slowly decompressed into language, a process that requires patience and relational safety rather than forced articulation.Here’s the link to the source article: https://open.substack.com/pub/autside/p/whole-memory-processing-when-theLet me know what you think.The AutSide is a reader-supported publication. To support my work, consider becoming a paid subscriber. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit autside.substack.com/subscribe

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• Episode 445: Gaslighting Trauma—Why Validation Must Be Repeated

  Today’s episode examines the profound impact of gaslighting on an individual’s sense of reality and the necessity of repetitive validation for recovery. The author of the source article, Jaime Hoerricks, PhD, argues that the persistent need for confirmation, often misinterpreted as insecurity or emotional dependence, is actually a crucial process of structural and epistemic repair after the victim’s trust in their own perception has been systematically undermined. Dr. Hoerricks explains that for individuals with a “gestalt memory” (GLPs), gaslighting attacks the entire framework of knowing, not just isolated facts, meaning that a single affirmation cannot undo the cumulative damage of repeated denial. Furthermore, she criticises therapeutic models that pathologise this need for repetition, asserting that true support involves consistent, unhurried confirmation to rebuild a stable foundation for the survivor’s internal knowing.Here’s the link to the source article: https://open.substack.com/pub/autside/p/trauma-after-gaslighting-why-validationLet me know what you think.The AutSide is a reader-supported publication. To support my work, consider becoming a paid subscriber. This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit autside.substack.com/subscribe

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