GRACEPILLED with Hanna Williams

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In this Q&A episode, I’m answering your questions about fear, shame, rejection, victimhood, chronic illness, creativity, desire, manifestation, and what it actually means to work with the hand life deals you. We talk about becoming the author of your life, how fear can point you toward your highest potential, why you might not know the “lesson” of a difficult experience until years later, and how to let old parts of yourself stay at the table without letting them run the show.

I also get into the yoga of wanting things: pursuing what you desire, working to change your circumstances, and participating fully in your life without making your peace dependent on getting the outcome you wanted. We talk about accepting the reality of illness without giving up on improving it, making art as a devotional practice, the slippery slope of manifestation and reality creation, and remembering the difference between the side quests of this life and the main quest.

Here is the book list I shared:

• My Name Is Chellis and I’m in Recovery from Western Civilization by Chellis Glendinning

• Tantra Illuminated by Christopher D. Wallis

• The Many Daughters of Afong Moy by Jamie Ford

• Ritual: Power, Healing and Community by Malidoma Patrice Somé

• High Magick by Damien Echols

• Six Ways by Aidan Wachter

• Living from the Heart by Puran Bair

• Already Free: Buddhism Meets Psychotherapy on the Path of Liberation by Bruce Tift

• In Praise of the Goddess: The Devimahatmya and Its Meaning by Devadatta Kali

• Decolonizing Methodologies by Linda Tuhiwai Smith

• Still Here by Ram Dass

• Crooked Cucumber, the biography of Shunryu Suzuki

Basically, this is an episode about how to want things, fear things, lose things, change things, and still keep your eye on the main quest.

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Kundalini has become one of the most sensationalized—and misunderstood—concepts in modern spirituality. In this episode, I share an essay exploring the classical tantric understanding of Kundalini as it has been taught in my lineage over the last eleven years. Rather than treating Kundalini as a rare energetic event or dramatic spiritual experience, we explore Her as the very power of Grace: the evolutionary force of consciousness that purifies the mind, awakens the heart, and ultimately reveals God.

Along the way, we discuss why Kundalini is synonymous with Grace and prana, the difference between chit kundalini and prana kundalini, why intense "kundalini experiences" are not necessarily signs of advanced spiritual development, and why surrender—not striving—is the essence of authentic Kundalini Yoga. We also examine the emotional side of spiritual purification, the role of a teacher, and how the deepest work of awakening often unfolds far more subtly than the internet would have you believe.

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Connect with Monika Alanna 

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@rooted.relating (coaching/grief counseling)
@magicksalt (handmade jewelry, art, writing)
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What if the hardest conflict you'll ever face isn't with another person—but with yourself?

In this conversation, Monika Alanna and I explore the subtle ways we avoid truth in order to avoid conflict. We talk about self-betrayal, people-pleasing, desire, compromise, relationships, nervous system regulation, and why so many of us sacrifice our own authenticity in the pursuit of belonging, love, or peace.

Along the way, we ask questions like: What makes someone a good compromise partner? How do you know the difference between compromise and self-sacrifice? Why do the things we love most about someone often become the very things that frustrate us? And what happens when we finally stop trying to avoid conflict altogether?

More than anything, this episode is an invitation to rethink conflict. Conflict is not a sign that something has gone wrong. It is an inevitable and even transformative part of being alive. The goal isn't to eliminate conflict. The goal is to develop the skills, awareness, and courage to meet it well.

Whether you're navigating romantic relationships, friendships, family dynamics, or your own inner world, I hope this conversation leaves you feeling a little more equipped to tell the truth, stay present through discomfort, and choose relationships that make both people more free.

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What happens when a classical Tantrika sits down with someone who has spent years working in the world of Neo Tantra and erotic bodywork? In this conversation, we explore where these two worlds overlap, where they fundamentally diverge, and what questions they raise about intimacy, healing, spirituality, sex work, vulnerability, and the search for God. Rather than trying to arrive at definitive answers, this episode is an invitation into a thoughtful and curious exploration of one of the most misunderstood subjects in contemporary spirituality.

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what we said at the end: vijnañabhairava tantra 

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What is Tantra, really?

In this episode, I sit down with David Yoss for an ambitious conversation: attempting to explain the vast world of classical Tantra in a single sitting. What began as a tongue-in-cheek challenge quickly became an exploration of just how difficult Tantra is to define. Far from being a single religion, philosophy, or practice, Tantra is a diverse family of traditions that has shaped Hinduism, Buddhism, ritual practice, yoga, mysticism, and devotional life across South Asia for over a thousand years.

Together, we explore some of the key themes that appear across Tantric traditions, while also discussing the historical and cultural forces that have shaped modern understandings (and misunderstandings) of Tantra in the West.

Topics include:

• Why scholars still struggle to agree on a single definition of Tantra

• The meaning of the word "Tantra" and its relationship to sacred texts and revelation

• Mantra as a living embodiment of divine power rather than a symbolic prayer

• Initiation, lineage, and the role of the guru in Tantric practice

• Ritual, puja, visualization, and worship in the "temple of the mind"

• The subtle body, chakras, nyasa, and the installation of mantras within the body

• Dualistic and nondual Tantric philosophies

• Why Tantra is often associated with transgression and what that actually means

• Left-handed and right-handed approaches to Tantric practice

• Siddhis, spiritual attainments, and the distinction between liberation and worldly goals

• The historical development of Tantra and its relationship to Hinduism and Buddhism

• How colonialism and Victorian attitudes toward sexuality influenced Western perceptions of Tantra

• The origins of Neo-Tantra and how it differs from classical Tantric traditions

Whether you're completely new to Tantra or have been practicing for years, this conversation offers a broad introduction to one of the most influential, misunderstood, and fascinating spiritual movements in human history.

Or at least our best attempt at explaining it in ninety minutes.