A Digital Journal

My Brain Has 47 Tabs Open is a reflection on mental noise, the pull of fresh starts, and the quieter work of staying. Lately I’ve been thinking about how easy it is to chase the excitement of new plans, new routines, and the feeling of beginning again - while forgetting that real growth usually asks for something less dramatic. In this episode, I’m talking about what it means to step into spaces that stretch you, the discomfort of realizing how much you still have to learn, and why not every open tab needs a reset. Sometimes growth is simply staying long enough to be shaped.

As we enter Dhul-Qa’dah, one of the sacred months, this episode is a gentle reminder that not all time is the same.

Allah says:
“Indeed, the number of months with Allah is twelve [lunar] months… of these, four are sacred. That is the correct religion, so do not wrong yourselves during them…” (Surah At-Tawbah 9:36)

And the Prophet ﷺ said:
“The year is twelve months, of which four are sacred: three consecutive months—Dhul-Qa’dah, Dhul-Hijjah, and Muharram—and Rajab…” (Bukhari & Muslim)

A short reflection on becoming more aware of sacred time, and how even small actions can carry greater weight within it.

Wa Allahu a‘lam.

commitment in order to get to Allah’s love
عَنْ عَائِشَةَ، 
أَنَّ رَسُولَ اللَّهِ صلى الله عليه وسلم قَالَ ‏ 

"‏ سَدِّدُوا وَقَارِبُوا، وَاعْلَمُوا أَنْ لَنْ يُدْخِلَ أَحَدَكُمْ عَمَلُهُ الْجَنَّةَ، وَأَنَّ أَحَبَّ الأَعْمَالِ أَدْوَمُهَا إِلَى اللَّهِ، وَإِنْ قَلَّ ‏"
Narrated `Aisha:
Allah's Messenger (ﷺ) said, "Do good deeds properly, sincerely and moderately and know that your deeds will not make you enter Paradise, and that the most beloved deed to Allah is the most regular and constant even if it were little."

Reference
: Sahih al-Bukhari 6464
In-book reference
: Book 81, Hadith 53

Ramadan Playlist - https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PL4CntPnHnrYuPDZIX953iY-_Lvjd7keue&si=j50RkR-kb7s6Zef1

a parable by shaykh mostafa al shaybani, tears

video of shaykh salah