The Rollercoaster Podcast

What happens when the person you've loved almost your entire life is suddenly taken from you?

My guest today is Ashley Leatham, who lost her husband, Scott, a 39-year-old firefighter, to a rare and aggressive cancer called NUT carcinoma. What started as persistent headaches turned into a devastating diagnosis, and just five months later, Ashley was holding her husband's hand as he took his final breath.

They had known each other since they were 12. They built a beautiful life, raised two children, and imagined growing old together. Then everything changed.

Ashley opens up about the unimaginable pain of watching her husband fight for his life, the heartbreak of telling their children he was dying, and the final moments she'll never forget.

In this episode:
The warning signs before Scott's devastating cancer diagnosis
How five months changed their family's lives forever
The heartbreaking final days before Scott passed away
Navigating grief, widowhood, and raising children after loss
Finding purpose, faith, and hope when life feels unbearable

This conversation is a powerful reminder that tomorrow is never promised, the people we love are everything, and even in our darkest moments, there can still be a reason to keep going.

Key Moments:
00:00 The heartbreaking final moments of Scott's cancer battle
03:01 A childhood friendship that became a lifelong love
07:50 The headaches that revealed a deadly cancer diagnosis
12:44 The hospital visit that changed everything
16:14 The rare cancer diagnosis and desperate fight to survive
20:11 When chemotherapy led to a terrifying emergency
23:05 Seven organs failing and the fight to stay alive
27:28 The devastating cancer prognosis that shattered their hope
30:18 How facing death changes what matters most
35:16 The powerful life lesson Scott left behind
38:55 The suspected cancer risks inside the fire station
43:23 The heartbreaking news that Scott had weeks to live
46:16 The final family memories before saying goodbye
49:09 Holding her husband's hand as he took his last breath
52:35 The painful reality of grief after losing a spouse
56:06 Finding purpose and hope after unimaginable loss

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There’s a point where you can’t blame your past anymore. You have to look in the mirror and decide who you’re going to become.

My guest, Shane Goodbar, has lived both sides of that truth.

Shane was sexually abused as a child, learned to hide behind a mask, and eventually found escape through alcohol and drugs. What started as a way to numb the pain spiraled into addiction, broken relationships, multiple DUIs, jail, and a moment where he came terrifyingly close to taking another man’s life.

But this isn’t just a story about addiction. It’s about accountability, recovery, fatherhood, faith, forgiveness, and what happens when you finally stop seeing yourself as the victim of your own life.

In this episode:
How childhood sexual abuse shaped Shane’s identity and need to escape
Why drugs and alcohol became a way to stop feeling
The rock-bottom moment that finally broke through years of denial
How a two-year therapeutic community completely rebuilt his life
Why recovery meant learning to love the man staring back in the mirror

What stayed with me most was Shane’s willingness to own all of it. Not excuse it. Not hide from it. Own it.

Because no matter how lost you’ve become, your past doesn’t have to be where your story ends. But eventually, you have to take the first step.

Key Moments:
00:00 The man behind the mask
03:18 Hiding childhood sexual abuse
06:02 When drugs became the escape
09:41 Living two different lives
13:15 Addiction starts taking over
17:46 The relationship that changed everything
21:07 Becoming a father changes the path
24:49 The lie he told himself about fatherhood
27:07 His fourth DUI and arrest
30:04 Ten days after leaving jail
33:09 When rock bottom finally hit
36:03 Facing the man he had become
39:01 Learning to love himself again
42:03 The identity crisis facing men
45:12 Finding God after years of pain
48:26 Why surrender finally brought peace
51:03 His message to anyone still lost
53:02 What recovery actually gives you

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There are some phone calls that divide your life into a before and an after.

My guest, Kylie Hammonds, was just 26 when she received one of those calls. Her mom, Tabitha, had died suddenly, leaving Kylie and her brother searching for answers about what happened that night.

Kylie takes me inside the events surrounding her mother’s death, the fentanyl discovered during the investigation, the questions surrounding her father, and the painful reality of grieving her mom while also grieving a father who was still alive.

In this episode:
The phone call that changed Kylie’s life forever

The unanswered questions surrounding her mom’s sudden death

Why the investigation left Kylie and her brother searching for answers

How she learned to release the anger she carried toward her father

Why preserving the voices and memories of the people we love matters so much

But this conversation became about so much more than loss.

Kylie shares what three years of grief, anger, prayer and healing have taught her about forgiveness, giving yourself grace, and how easily we convince ourselves we’ll have more time with the people we love.

Later, Kylie’s boyfriend Michael Curtis joins us to share how watching her navigate this unimaginable loss inspired him to create Forevermore, a platform designed to preserve the voices, stories and memories of the people we love.

And at the very end, Kylie plays the only voicemail she has left of her mom.

It’s only a few seconds long, but when it’s the only chance you have to hear someone you love again, a few seconds is everything.

Key Moments:
00:00 The phone call that changed everything
05:13 Flying home without knowing the truth
10:03 Why her brother warned her at the airport
15:07 The heartbreaking scene inside the house
20:05 Strangers caught entering her mom’s office
24:48 Her father’s story starts falling apart
29:10 The addiction Kylie never fully understood
33:07 Fentanyl changes the entire investigation
38:22 The discovery that changed how she saw her dad
42:04 Grieving a father who is still alive
49:21 What grief taught her about surviving loss
57:30 The tragedy that shaped Michael’s view of loss
1:02:00 How Kylie’s grief sparked a bigger idea
1:12:00 Using AI to preserve a loved one’s voice
1:17:00 The questions that uncover your life story
1:25:16 Hearing a loved one’s voice after they’re gone
1:32:12 What she’d give to hear her mom again

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In this episode, I sit down with Nick Rogers and his wife, Cassie, two people whose lives were shattered by the unimaginable loss of their spouses to cancer.

Nick takes me through his wife Anna’s battle with aggressive breast cancer, the moment they thought she had beaten it, and the devastating reality of watching it return and spread. He also shares the impossible decisions he had to make as a father while trying to protect his two young daughters from losing their mom.

Cassie’s story is different, but equally heartbreaking. Her husband Cody went from seemingly healthy to being diagnosed with metastatic pancreatic cancer, and just 66 days later, he was gone. Before he died, Cody told Cassie something incredible: he was already praying for the man who would one day love her and help raise their children.

In this episode:
What it’s really like to lose a spouse to cancer
The impossible decisions parents face while grieving
How Nick and Cassie helped their children process loss
The role faith played when life stopped making sense
How they slowly found hope, healing, and love again

And somehow, through grief, faith, and circumstances that are almost impossible to explain, Nick and Cassie found each other.

This conversation is about losing the person you thought you’d grow old with, parenting through grief, trusting God when nothing makes sense, and slowly discovering that life, and even love, can exist after unimaginable loss.

Key Moments:
00:00 Two spouses lost to cancer, one unexpected love story
03:18 The cancer diagnosis that changed everything
07:04 Finding faith through aggressive cancer treatment
10:19 When chemotherapy made death feel real
13:17 Cancer remission and a new beginning
16:32 The symptoms that revealed a brain tumor
20:07 When cancer came back even more aggressively
24:03 Facing the reality that Anna could die
28:26 The final months of Anna’s cancer battle
34:44 She fell asleep and never woke up
38:09 Telling two young girls their mom was dying
41:40 66 days from pancreatic cancer diagnosis to death
45:00 The scan that revealed a death sentence
49:32 Cody’s final message of faith
51:21 Why Cody prayed for Cassie’s future husband
54:28 Finding love after losing a spouse
56:48 Anna’s message to Cassie before she died

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A few days before 16-year-old Landon took his own life, he spent what felt like one of the best weeks of his life with his cousin, Landon Ashworth.

They ate way too much sushi, played golf, shot guns, laughed, talked about life, and dreamed about the future. When the week ended, Landon told him how much he needed it. He seemed happy. He seemed okay.

Then came the phone call that changed everything.

I sit down with filmmaker, actor, writer, and creator Landon Ashworth for an incredibly raw conversation about suicide, autism, grief, survivor’s guilt, and the things we sometimes don't see until it's too late.

In this episode:
Losing his 16-year-old cousin Landon to suicide

The warning signs he wishes he had recognized sooner

Growing up autistic, masking, bullying, and feeling misunderstood

The survivor’s guilt he still carries after Landon’s death

Turning grief into his deeply personal film Go On

Landon opens up about experiencing suicidal thoughts himself and why he now isn’t afraid to directly ask someone if they’re thinking about taking their own life.

We also talk about the painful reality of trying to help someone find their way out of the darkness, why emotional pain can feel impossible to escape, and the importance of finding something worth holding onto.

This conversation is heavy. But more than anything, it’s about choosing to keep going.

Key Moments:
00:00 The week before everything changed
03:03 When Landon’s future fell apart
06:25 The week that made him feel okay again
10:02 The phone call no one expected
13:43 The guilt of missing the signs
17:02 The suicide warning signs he missed
20:23 The reality of masking autism
24:00 Why other people’s opinions mean nothing
29:39 What an autistic brain can feel like
34:29 The Hollywood advice Landon couldn’t accept
38:00 Why vulnerable people started finding him
41:37 Turning Landon’s suicide into Go On
45:01 Finding a reason to stay alive
48:02 How to get out of emotional hell

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Connect with Landon Ashworth:
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