The Rollercoaster Podcast

What happens when the thing that defines you is taken away in a single moment?On this episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Mahi Crabbe, a former full-time musician who nearly lost his life in a brutal rock-crawling accident that crushed his hand and shattered his identity as an artist on November 3, 2018.In a matter of seconds, Mahi went from touring and playing sold-out shows to lying in an ambulance, convinced his career was over. The injury didn’t just threaten his ability to play guitar, it forced him to confront deeper questions about purpose, faith, manhood, and how to provide for the family he always dreamed of building.We talk about the night everything changed, the fear of starting over, the anger he carried toward God, and how losing his “guitar hand” ultimately led him to build an entirely new life as a business owner and father.If you’ve ever had your plans ripped away, your identity shaken, or your faith tested, this conversation will hit home.Watch this episode to see how losing everything became the beginning of something bigger.Key Moments:0:00 The Day I Lost My Hand3:02 My Hand Was Hanging By Skin6:05 Life Flashing Before My Eyes9:10 “That’s His Guitar Hand”12:36 Waking Up, My Identity Was Gone15:32 I Couldn’t Be A Musician Anymore18:39 From Hospital Bed To Truck Driver21:30 Growing Up Without A Father24:23 Becoming The Man I Never Had26:50 The Night That Changed My Faith29:40 From Leaving Church To Returning33:03 Why God Took My Hand35:41 My Family Came Back To Church37:55 From Homeless To Business Owner40:14 Why Hawaii Heals The Soul42:49 My Message To Every Man WatchingGuest Info:IG: @mahilive (https://www.instagram.com/mahilive/)

What happens when faith meets unimaginable loss and the miracle doesn’t come the way you prayed for it?In this deeply raw episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Shayna Weston, a woman whose life was shattered by a relentless sequence of grief that few could survive. In the span of a single year, Shayna walked beside her brother as he fought terminal cancer, held onto hope for a miracle, whispered goodbye as he took his final breath, then returned home only to lose her beloved dog… and shortly after, face her father’s devastating stage four pancreatic cancer diagnosis.This conversation isn’t about tidy answers or surface-level faith. It’s about the brutal reality of grief, the anger we feel toward God, the moments we bargain, break, and beg and the quiet, unexpected ways healing and redemption can still emerge.Shayna opens up about caregiving, anticipatory grief, losing multiple loved ones, wrestling with faith, forgiveness, and what it truly means to surrender when control is gone. It’s honest, heartbreaking, and somehow still filled with hope.Watch this episode to understand grief on a deeper level and if you’ve ever lost someone, questioned your faith, or felt crushed by loss, this conversation will remind you that you’re not alone.Key Moments:0:00 The Call That Changed Everything3:14 “You Have One Week Left”6:07 When Hope And Reality Collided9:21 The Moment I Knew He Was Dying12:08 Singing Through Terminal Cancer15:02 Doctors Said It Was Impossible18:36 The Treatment That Shouldn’t Have Worked21:48 When I Began Fighting God24:31 “I’m Scared To Die”27:26 Choosing Faith Over Fear30:19 The Breath That Never Came Back33:08 Watching My Brother Take His Last Breath36:11 Grief Hits In Slow Motion39:04 The Silence That Broke Our Family42:12 Losing My Dog Right After Losing Him45:03 When Grief Turned Into Anger48:29 The Diagnosis That Came Next51:42 Stage Four Pancreatic Cancer54:56 “I Don’t Want To Fight Anymore”58:08 Learning To Let GoGuest Info:IG: @shay_weston_ (https://www.instagram.com/shay_weston_/)

What happens when suicide keeps showing up in your life… before you’re even old enough to understand it?In this episode of The Rollercoaster Podcast, I sit down with Stanley Stark, a man whose life has been shaped by loss, silence, and hard truths most men never say out loud. From losing a close friend as a teenager to the devastating phone call that his own father had taken his life, Stanley opens up about how unprocessed grief, broken family dynamics, and emotional isolation quietly pushed him toward recklessness, anger, and self-destruction.But this conversation isn’t just about tragedy. It’s about what happens when a man finally stops running. We talk openly about men’s mental health, suicide prevention, integrity, faith, and why so many men suffer in silence until it feels unbearable. Stanley shares the lessons grief taught him, the power of forgiveness, and how community and honesty can save lives.If you’ve lost someone to suicide, struggled with your mental health, or wondered how to be a better man in a broken world, watch this episode to be reminded that you’re not alone and it’s never too late to choose a different path.Key Moments:0:00 I Buried a Friend Yesterday…3:30 The Note His Friend Left Behind6:25 Holding a Gun at 15 and Asking “Why”8:55 The Session That Shut Him Down12:18 The Lie That Killed His Hope15:01 A Broken Father-Son Bond17:48 Trying to Start Over… One Last Time21:17 The Call That Changed Everything24:22 The Details No One Warned Him About28:24 The Suicide Statistics Men Ignore31:02 Why His Pain Became His Purpose35:10 The Silent Addiction Destroying Men39:13 Why Being Approachable Can Save a Life41:35 “Suicide Doesn’t End Pain... It Passes It On”45:12 The One Truth Every Man Needs to Hear Today

What do you do when the person you love becomes the person you fear most? In today’s episode, I sit down with Lyndsey Hackford, a woman whose story left me shaken, heartbroken, and in absolute awe of her strength.For 18 years, Lyndsey lived inside an abusive marriage that slowly stole her voice, her identity, and nearly her life. What started as subtle manipulation spiraled into control, isolation, physical violence, and moments where she genuinely didn’t know if she would survive the night. Her children witnessed things no child ever should. And yet, Lyndsey found a way out.In this conversation, Lyndsey walks us through the moments that changed everything: the fear, the near-death experiences, the police intervention, the escape, the trial, and the long, painful road to rebuilding her life. If you’ve lived through trauma, domestic abuse, emotional manipulation, or you’re trying to support someone who has, her story will stay with you.Watch this episode to hear Lyndsey’s message of hope, courage, and reclaiming your life, no matter how dark things have been.Key Moments:0:00 “I Hit the Wall So I Wouldn’t Hit Mom”3:00 The “Support” That Was Actually Control6:02 How Her Religion Was Used Against Her9:19 The Moment She Realised Her Worth Was Gone12:00 The Day He Admitted He Wanted to Hit Her14:44 The Shame and Threats That Kept Her Silent17:39 A Year of Sleep Deprivation and Surveillance20:10 “Just Let Me Leave”… and the Violent Response23:06 “Look at That Face, How Could I Love That?”26:00 The Escape Attempt That Finally Worked29:31 The Jury Trial And Her Kids Taking the Stand32:53 Why Abusers All Share the Same Patterns33:23 Her Message to Women Still Living in FearGuest Info:IG: @lyndseyh6723 Facebook: @lyndsey.jackson.125

What do you do when the pain gets so loud that you don’t want to be here anymore? What happens in the moment when life almost ends… and something pulls you back?In this powerful episode of The Rollercoaster Podcast, I sit down with Wes Wright, who opens up about the day he attempted to take his own life and the split-second moment that changed everything. Wes walks us through the fear, exhaustion, and silent suffering that led him there, the near-death experience that followed, and the long road back toward faith, accountability, and purpose.This conversation goes far beyond a suicide attempt. We talk about men’s mental health, depression, identity, faith, redemption, and the lies that convince people they are alone or beyond repair. Wes shares the hard lessons he learned about responsibility, healing, and why pain doesn’t mean your story is over.If you’ve ever felt broken, lost your sense of purpose, or questioned whether life can get better, this conversation will meet you right where you are.Watch this episode to hear Wes Wright’s story and be reminded that hope is still possible.Key Moments:0:00 The Day He Planned To End His Life2:45 Sitting Alone With A Gun And No Hope6:10 Dialling 911 Not Knowing If He’d Survive9:10 “God Still Gave Me A Choice”13:40 The Lie That Almost Destroyed Him16:20 The Ten-Minute Danger Window20:40 “I Wanted One Last Goodbye”23:10 Doctors Say Can’t Explain This27:30 The Therapist Who Changed Him31:10 “My Son Died… Then I Tried To”34:20 Why Suicide Doesn’t End Pain37:05 The Three Lies That Trap You40:10 A Message To Anyone StrugglingGuest Info:IG: @wesfunbroTiktok: @wesfunbro