Go In Courage Podcast

From sex parties and hedonism to retraining as a therapist, Jemma Hardélle has lived a life that has challenged many of the usual rules around relationships, identity and what a successful life is supposed to look like.
In this episode of Go In Courage, Jemma joins me for an open conversation about the courage it takes to question the scripts we inherit and work out what is actually true for us.
We talk about people pleasing, learning to say no, neurodivergence, relationships, therapy and the stories we can internalise about ourselves from an early age.
Jemma shares how growing up with undiagnosed dyslexia affected the way she saw herself, how her own unconventional relationship experiences led her into ethical non monogamy and polyamory, and why struggling to find a therapist who could truly understand the complexity of her life ultimately inspired her to retrain and become that person for others.
We also explore why relationships sometimes need reviewing as we change, what it means to take the mask off in therapy, and the importance of having somewhere we can tell the truth without fear of judgement.
At its heart, this is a conversation about authenticity. About asking whether the life, relationship or identity that once fitted you still fits today. And having the courage to be honest about the answer.

Natalie J joins me to talk about finding herself in an adult industry at just 15, the identity that was built around her, and the long journey toward reclaiming her own story.
Natalie trained in ballet from a young age before her life changed dramatically as a teenager when modelling and national media attention arrived far earlier than she was ready for.
What followed took her through glamour modelling, Los Angeles, Baywatch Nights, music videos, international travel and a world that often looked glamorous from the outside while internally she was still trying to understand who she really was.
In this conversation, Natalie speaks openly about being 15 in an adult industry, the pressure of being defined by other people, changing her name, starting again in America, resilience, reinvention and the courage it took to keep moving forward.
We also explore body image, fame, authenticity, relationships, spirituality, self belief and what it means to finally take ownership of your own story.
Now a writer, Natalie reflects on how writing her memoir, Dark Star: A Child’s Body, a Photographer’s Obsession, a Media Frenzy, helped her reclaim a story that for years had been shaped by other people.
Find Natalie on Instagram: @nataliej.world
Dark Star is available on Amazon: https://link.amazon/B0cCGDahp

🎙 Go In Courage Podcast Episode 56: You Don’t Build Courage by Staying Comfortable | Sam Carter-Smith.
In this episode, host Rix Banga sits down with Sam Carter-Smith, an events producer, boxing coach, consultant and mentor working with founders in the health and fitness industry.
Together they explore what courage actually looks like in everyday life, why growth often requires discomfort, the role boxing and sport can play in men’s mental health, fatherhood, community, purpose and what happens when we deliberately step outside of our comfort zones.
Sam shares his experience coaching thousands of people through their first boxing events, including men who later told him the process helped them through some of the lowest points in their lives.

🎙 Go In Courage Podcast Episode 55: You Are Not Broken: Autism, ADHD, Courage and Reinventing Your Life with Amie Barlow.
What happens when you stop forcing your brain, career and identity into a life that was never designed for you? In this episode, Rix Banga welcomes fitness and ADHD coach Amie Barlow for an honest, funny and deeply personal conversation about autism, ADHD, neurodivergence, anxiety, identity and reinvention.
Amie shares her journey from professional dance and performing in the West End to building a successful career in fitness, online coaching and content creation. After growing her business quickly, she realised she had built it around somebody else’s model and that it no longer worked for her brain, energy or sense of purpose.
Diagnosed with ADD at 11 and later diagnosed with ADHD and autism as an adult, Amie reflects on finally understanding herself without allowing those labels to become limitations.
Together, Rix and Amie explore emotional regulation, anxiety attacks, childhood triggers, trauma responses, relationships, dopamine, intuition, faith, entrepreneurship and what it means to build a life around how your brain genuinely works.

🎙 Go In Courage Podcast Episode 54: When Your Old Life No Longer Fits: The Courage to Transform
What happens when the identity you built your life around no longer feels like you? In this episode, Rix Banga welcomes Kat Smailis back to the Go In Courage podcast for a reflective conversation about identity, personal transformation and the courage to follow an invitation into the unknown.
Kat shares why she stepped away from being known primarily as an intimacy therapist and entered a season of profound change. She explores the uncertainty of releasing an old identity without knowing what will replace it, and how her experience in Egypt became a defining turning point.
Together, Rix and Kat unpack the hero’s journey, our resistance to uncertainty, the psychological death of an old self and what happens when your previous life no longer fits. Rix also reflects on loss, resilience and learning that courage is not always about enduring more pain. Sometimes it means treating yourself more gently while you heal.
Looking to the hero's journey, using modern day stories such as Superman, The Matrix, The Alchemist and metamorphosis, they explore what it means to live from the heart and become who you are ready to be.