School of Rock Bottom

• “I want to fill my soul up, not my void up!” Thought #19. School of Rock Bottom: Malin Andersson

  “I want to fill my soul up, not my void up!”Former Love Island star, speaker, author and all-round amazing human Malin Andersson opens up about the darkest corners of her life — from losing a parent, surviving an abusive relationship, and losing her daughter — to discovering an inner strength that can’t be explained but is undeniably real. We talk about what happens when the distractions & addictions are stripped away, when you're left with the void you've been so desperately trying to fill with addiction and when the only way out is through finding purpose and inner healing. We explore what it means to confront your shadow, to stop running, and to sit still long enough to hear what the pain has to say. There’s something here for anyone who's ever felt broken, stuck, or lost — and wondered if they had what it takes to keep going. Whether you're in recovery, soul-searching, or simply need a reminder that you’re not alone — this is for you. If you're ready to stop filling the void up and start filling your soul up — stay with us!About the “THOUGHT” series -Every other Monday at 5 PM, I’ll bring you a quick ‘thought’—a powerful moment from previous episodes designed to kickstart your week with insight, motivation, and connection. These shorter clips help us stay connected as a community, while every other Tuesday delivers a full, brand-new episode with fresh stories and lessons. Podcasting is an expensive passion. To help me keep going, I'd really appreciate it if you could buy me a coffee, thank you!Follow Malin Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/missmalinsaraTikTok-https://www.tiktok.com/@malin_sara_anderssonFollow OliverInstagram - https://tinyurl.com/2vt29sjvFacebook - https://tinyurl.com/34cwz59rTikTok - https://tinyurl.com/ujw4vxn9LinkedIn - https://tinyurl.com/yuemhnd7Threads - https://tinyurl.com/yk7vdeahX - https://tinyurl.com/3u5mnpdsWatch the FULL episode here Spotify - https://bit.ly/3HWiVaBYouTube - https://bit.ly/3SBXSz1Apple - https://apple.co/3PajZvQ#loveisland #bingedrinking #recovery

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• Surviving Silence: Healing from Childhood Trauma & Shame. School of Rock Bottom 62: Madeleine Black

  [TW: sexual violence & child sexual abuse – discussed from the start] I sit down with a survivor of sexual violence Madeleine Black, who shares her extraordinary journey — from the silence she held for years, to the shame that followed her through school and the deep impact it had on her sense of identity. She speaks openly about the PTSD she didn’t know she had, the physical toll it took on her body, and how trauma can remain locked in our cells long after the event.We explore how she began to heal — through therapy and confronting the memories she had once buried. She shares how her body would shake, cry, and throw up during sessions — and how, despite all of it, she found her way through. What’s remarkable is how forgiveness entered her life, not as a decision, but as something she describes as “accidental.” She didn’t seek revenge. Instead, she chose to heal — not for anyone else, but for herself.We also look into the cultural side of this story — the rise in misogyny and violence towards women, the danger of men like Andrew Tate and why we need to talk about how to educate young men. Shows like Netflix’s Adolescence are doing important work in this space, and we unpack how early conversations about consent, boundaries, and empathy can change everything.This episode is a powerful, intelligent and moving looking at what it really takes to heal, why shame is so powerful — and how survival is never simple, but always possible.Thank you to Gavin Sisters for sponsoring this episode! Visit -www.gavinsisters.co.uk and use promo code SCHOOLOFROCKBOTTOM for 10% off!Podcasting is an expensive passion. To help me keep going, I'd really appreciate it if you could buy me a coffee, thank you!https://buymeacoffee.com/olivermason1Or via PayPal - https://www.paypal.me/olivermason1paypalTopics -0:00 Intro 3:30 Madeleine's rock bottom6:15 Why didn't Madeleine tell anyone? 7:30 Reputation at school 9:00 Do you blame alcohol? 11:30 Are rape survivors more likely to be raped again? 12:30 No one asked me if I was OK 14:00 What caused Madeleine to stop eating and drinking?16:10 100% of rapes are caused by rapist's 17:20 Revenge?19:30 I'm an accidental forgiver 21:30 Forgiving & healing yourself 23:40 I'm from a family of survivors 26:25 Trauma was locked into my cells 29:00 Healing PTSD 30:30 Strength in private moments 35:30 Letting go of shame 36:30 Lessons from Netflix's Adolescence & Andrew Tate 40:20 Sponsor 41:20 How do we educate young people? 42:30 Why young men become incels Follow46:30 Going in to get out! 51:40 What do you want written on your gravestone?Follow Madeleine Website - https://madeleineblack.co.ukBuy her book - https://amzn.eu/d/5j95ilCInstagram - https://www.instagram.com/madblack65Follow OliverInstagram - https://tinyurl.com/2vt29sjvFacebook - https://tinyurl.com/34cwz59rTikTok - https://tinyurl.com/ujw4vxn9LinkedIn - https://tinyurl.com/yuemhnd7Threads - https://tinyurl.com/yk7vdeahX - https://tinyurl.com/3u5mnpdsPlease subscribe, follow, like, leave a review and comment! YouTube - https://tinyurl.com/3tjdsvwaSpotify - https://spoti.fi/3Z0Pr1rApple - https://tinyurl.com/y3n2chk3#PTSDRecovery#SexualAssaultSurvivor#ToxicMasculinity

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• Thought #18: Is Relapse Part of Recovery? School of Rock Bottom: Maddie Kitchen

  In this deeply personal thought, I revisit my conversation with Filmmaker Maddie Kitchen as we explore the reality of relapse in recovery — not as a failure, but as something many people experience on the path to long-term sobriety. My personal view is that relapse is part of addiction - not recovery, as it nearly killed me on many occasions. Relapse is not without severe risk and many people die so it's far from a recommendation. However, it was a huge part of my journey and this conversation highlights this perfectly. If it doesn't kill you - it can serve as a great teacher and there is no failure if you keep trying until recovery sticks. Our guest shares their powerful story of being sober for 12 years, following two relapses during the early years of recovery. The first came after a bout of clinical depression; the second lasted two weeks. These moments could have derailed everything. Instead, they became turning points. We talk openly about what relapse means, the fear and shame that often surround it and the stigma people face. We also reflect on the extraordinary strength it takes to stay sober through bereavement, illness and loss — including breast cancer, family illness, and grief. This episode is a reminder that life doesn’t stop being difficult once we get sober — but with the right support, therapy, and community, it becomes possible to face even the hardest challenges without returning to old patterns. We also discuss how early childhood trauma and mental health issues can shape addiction, with insights into the impact of postpartum psychosis and disrupted early bonds. This is an honest conversation that strips away myths around alcoholism and shows the human story behind long-term recovery. Whether you’re sober, struggling, or supporting someone who is, this is a must-listen.About the “THOUGHT” series -Every other Monday at 5 PM, I’ll bring you a quick ‘thought’—a powerful moment from previous episodes designed to kickstart your week with insight, motivation, and connection. These shorter clips help us stay connected as a community, while every other Tuesday delivers a full, brand-new episode with fresh stories and lessons. Podcasting is an expensive passion. To help me keep going, I'd really appreciate it if you could buy me a coffee, thank you!Follow Maddie & Sobriety Films Instagram - https://instagram.com/sobriety_filmsFacebook - https://www.facebook.com/sobriety.films.uk/Twitter/X - https://x.com/UkSobrietyWebsite - http://www.sobrietyfilms.comFollow OliverInstagram - https://tinyurl.com/2vt29sjvFacebook - https://tinyurl.com/34cwz59rTikTok - https://tinyurl.com/ujw4vxn9LinkedIn - https://tinyurl.com/yuemhnd7Threads - https://tinyurl.com/yk7vdeahX - https://tinyurl.com/3u5mnpdsWatch the FULL episode here Spotify - https://bit.ly/47Wka4wApple - https://apple.co/3PajZvQYouTube - https://tinyurl.com/mw5btxfc#RecoveryStory #SobrietyJourney #MentalHealthRecovery

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• "Connection is the opposite of addiction!" School of Rock Bottom 61: Jessica Wilde

  Singer and spoken word artist Jessica Wilde opens up about her journey through addiction, heartbreak and early sobriety — and how connection, creativity and community helped her rebuild from the ground up.From a brief but intense relationship that shattered her sense of self, to finding clarity in nature, yoga studios, and unexpected friendships - Jessica shares her truth of what recovery really looks like — beyond just putting down the drink. Jessica shares the paradox of sobriety and insecurity — and why it’s often just the start of real inner work, how yoga, music and spoken word connected her to a sober community, why every painful relationship reveals a deeper lesson about self-worth and how reconnecting with creativity can rewire your identity in sobriety. This conversation is honest, unfiltered, and full of hard-earned insight. If you’ve ever felt stuck, lost, or alone in your recovery — or if you’re supporting someone who is — this one’s for you. More on Jessica -Jessica Wilde is a South London artist known for raw, soul-searing vocals and sharp-witted spoken word, blending honesty and empowerment in every lyric. Her debut project felt like a diary—covering addiction, toxic relationships, and wild nights—culminating in a powerful journey to self-love and sobriety.Now back with her new album Teach Me How To Love, Jessica explores transformation and connection, earning airplay across BBC Radio 1, 1Xtra, and 6Music, and press in CLASH, Complex, and more. She’s collaborated with Rudimental, Emeli Sandé, and Todd Terry, and hit major stages like Glastonbury and Soultown Festival. She’s also the founder of PxSSY PWR—spotlighting rising underground women—with a Hootananny residency, fashion collab with Fame Magazine, and festival takeovers to her name.Topics 0:00 Intro3:50 Jessica's rock bottom8:25 Using drinking as a way to mask what you don't like about yourself 10:00 Are people sent to you to teach you something?12:00 Jessica starts drinking at 13 15:05 Drinking escalates 16:45 The power of community 18:40 Intimacy and being sober 19:40 Psychedelics as part of recovery?25:35 Connection is the opposite of addiction 31:15 Sponsor32:17 Rat park experiment34:00 Is Jessica...WILD?!36:00 Partying sober!39:40 Staying sober 41:55 PUSSY POWERFollow Jessica NEW ALBUM 'TEACH ME HOW TO LOVE'https://slinky.to/TMHTLInstagram - https://www.instagram.com/iamjessicawildewww.instagram.com/itsthatpxssypwrTikTok - https://www.tiktok.com/@iamjessicawildeYouTube - https://youtube.com/@iamjessicawildeFollow OliverInstagram - https://tinyurl.com/2vt29sjvFacebook - https://tinyurl.com/34cwz59rTikTok - https://tinyurl.com/ujw4vxn9LinkedIn - https://tinyurl.com/yuemhnd7Threads - https://tinyurl.com/yk7vdeahX - https://tinyurl.com/3u5mnpdsPlease subscribe, follow, like, leave a review and comment! YouTube - https://tinyurl.com/57wav9emSpotify - https://spoti.fi/3Z0Pr1rApple - https://tinyurl.com/y3n2chk3#AddictionRecovery #SoberLiving #MentalHealthAwareness

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• Thought #17: How I Quit Heroin. School of Rock Bottom: Carl Scott

  In this next quick thought, I return to a powerful conversation with Carl Scott as we document the real turning point from heroin addiction to a purpose-driven life. We go through all the tools that helped Carl get clean. From methadone clinics, therapy, SMART, Intuitive Recovery to running recovery programmes, to finding identity in service – this is a story of action over talk, grit over glamour. Whether you’re struggling, supporting someone who is, or just need reminding of the power of community and purpose - this episode will resonate. About the “THOUGHT” series -Every other Monday at 6PM, I’ll bring you a quick ‘thought’—a powerful moment from previous episodes designed to kickstart your week with insight, motivation, and connection. These shorter clips help us stay connected as a community, while every other Tuesday delivers a full, brand-new episode with fresh stories and lessons. Podcasting is an expensive passion. To help me keep going, I'd really appreciate it if you could buy me a coffee, thank you!Follow OliverInstagram - https://tinyurl.com/2vt29sjvFacebook - https://tinyurl.com/34cwz59rTikTok - https://tinyurl.com/ujw4vxn9LinkedIn - https://tinyurl.com/yuemhnd7Threads - https://tinyurl.com/yk7vdeahX - https://tinyurl.com/3u5mnpdsListen or watch THE FULL EPISODE here (School of Rock Bottom Ep 23)Spotify - https://bit.ly/3SQuJ4KApple - https://apple.co/3PajZvQYouTube - https://tinyurl.com/zknk23y9#AddictionRecovery#MentalHealthAwareness#PurposeDrivenLife

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