Awaken into Love Podcast

After 10 years of supporting people with Relationship OCD (ROCD) and relationship anxiety around the world, there are a few things I wish I could go back and tell myself at the beginning of my own journey.
In this solo episode, I reflect on the lessons I've learned through my own healing, as well as a decade of walking alongside thousands of individuals navigating ROCD.
We explore:
♡ Why you're not stuck, even if it feels that way
♡ The truth about intrusive thoughts and what gives them power
♡ Why you are not your thoughts, feelings, or fears
♡ How societal conditioning shapes our beliefs about love and relationships
♡ The difference between fantasy love and mature love
♡ Why healing is possible, even when uncertainty feels overwhelming
♡ What I've learned after 10 years of supporting the ROCD community
If you're struggling with intrusive thoughts, relationship anxiety, fear, doubt, or uncertainty in your relationship, I hope this conversation offers you hope, perspective, and compassion.
A gentle reminder: if you're listening from a place of urgency or reassurance-seeking, allow this episode to be an invitation into understanding rather than certainty. Healing doesn't come from finding the "right" answer, it comes from learning to relate differently to uncertainty and to yourself.
✨ You are not stuck.
If you're looking for support on your healing journey, you're invited to join us for a free ROCD HOME session and connect with others who understand what you're going through.
💗 Claim your free spot: here
With love,
Kiyomi

What happens when relationship doubt feels so real you believe you have to leave?
In this episode of Awaken Into Love, Kiyomi sits down with Cameron to explore his lived experience with Relationship OCD (ROCD), from the moment doubt appeared early in his relationship, to the shame, emotional suppression, and fear that followed.
Cameron shares what it was like navigating ROCD as a man, including the pressure to "stay strong," the belief that emotions were something to fix, and the deep confusion that arises when love and anxiety collide. Together, we explore why ROCD feels so convincing, how disconnection can feel genuinely threatening, and what shifted when Cameron stopped trying to solve his thoughts and instead began allowing his emotions.
It's an honest, human conversation about learning to sit with discomfort, softening self-judgment, and discovering a more grounded way of relating to yourself and to your partner.
This episode is for you if:
-ROCD or relationship anxiety feels too real to ignore
-You feel pressure to know how you feel at all times
-Disconnection in relationships feels threatening
-You've struggled with shame around emotions
-You want to hear a man's real, lived experience with ROCD
You are not broken. You are not failing. And, you are not alone. (#YANA)
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Today, Manon (Awaken into Love Director) sits with Martina, a longtime Awaken into Love ROCD/RA community member and HOME member (our ROCD/RA peer-support group) whose journey will resonate with anyone who has ever questioned their relationship, doubted their feelings, or felt shame about their intrusive thoughts.
In this deeply vulnerable conversation, Martina shares how ROCD first showed up three days into her relationship, how misunderstandings from therapists intensified her anxiety, and how years later, during a stressful life transition, her symptoms resurfaced in painful and confusing ways.
She opens up about:
-intrusive images and "false attraction" spikes
-emotional numbness and derealization
-the shame of not recognizing her partner
-comparing her partner to others
-the impact of OCD on her long-term relationship
-what finally helped her truly heal
We hope our beloved Martina's courage brings you comfort and hope.
If you're interested in trying the ROCD/RA HOME peer-support for FREE: http://home.rocdcourse.com/join

In this episode of Awaken into Love, Kiyomi dives into one of the biggest and most confusing parts of life with ROCD: expansion. How do you grow, evolve, and follow your purpose when your mind is constantly pulling you back into fear and doubt? We explore:
The paradox of wanting change while fearing it
Common fears around outgrowing your partner or making the wrong choice
How society's messages about purpose can trigger obsessive thinking
Why community is core medicine for OCD and ROCD
Expansion doesn't have to mean leaving your partner behind — it can mean opening to more love and authenticity right where you are.  Join our October Masterclass on Expansion at Awaken into Life  Learn more about ROCD and find support at rocdcourse.com

We're back for season 2 of the Awaken into Love podcast! In this first episode, Kiyomi and Manon explore what it really means to thrive with OCD and ROCD, beyond perfectionism, societal pressure, and comparison.
This is the first part of the conversation. For the complete VIP episode, our Thriving Masterclass, and the LIVE deepening circle on Sept 27, join us inside our new membership: Awaken into Life.
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