Awaken into Love Podcast

What happens when relationship doubt feels so real you believe you have to leave?
In this episode of Awaken Into Love, Kiyomi sits down with Cameron to explore his lived experience with Relationship OCD (ROCD), from the moment doubt appeared early in his relationship, to the shame, emotional suppression, and fear that followed.
Cameron shares what it was like navigating ROCD as a man, including the pressure to "stay strong," the belief that emotions were something to fix, and the deep confusion that arises when love and anxiety collide. Together, we explore why ROCD feels so convincing, how disconnection can feel genuinely threatening, and what shifted when Cameron stopped trying to solve his thoughts and instead began allowing his emotions.
It's an honest, human conversation about learning to sit with discomfort, softening self-judgment, and discovering a more grounded way of relating to yourself and to your partner.
This episode is for you if:
-ROCD or relationship anxiety feels too real to ignore
-You feel pressure to know how you feel at all times
-Disconnection in relationships feels threatening
-You've struggled with shame around emotions
-You want to hear a man's real, lived experience with ROCD
You are not broken. You are not failing. And, you are not alone. (#YANA)
✨ Want to start your healing journey? Take the FREE ROCD/Relationship Anxiety Quiz and get instant clarity on what kind of support might help you next.

Today, Manon (Awaken into Love Director) sits with Martina, a longtime Awaken into Love ROCD/RA community member and HOME member (our ROCD/RA peer-support group) whose journey will resonate with anyone who has ever questioned their relationship, doubted their feelings, or felt shame about their intrusive thoughts.
In this deeply vulnerable conversation, Martina shares how ROCD first showed up three days into her relationship, how misunderstandings from therapists intensified her anxiety, and how years later, during a stressful life transition, her symptoms resurfaced in painful and confusing ways.
She opens up about:
-intrusive images and "false attraction" spikes
-emotional numbness and derealization
-the shame of not recognizing her partner
-comparing her partner to others
-the impact of OCD on her long-term relationship
-what finally helped her truly heal
We hope our beloved Martina's courage brings you comfort and hope.
If you're interested in trying the ROCD/RA HOME peer-support for FREE: http://home.rocdcourse.com/join

In this episode of Awaken into Love, Kiyomi dives into one of the biggest and most confusing parts of life with ROCD: expansion. How do you grow, evolve, and follow your purpose when your mind is constantly pulling you back into fear and doubt? We explore:
The paradox of wanting change while fearing it
Common fears around outgrowing your partner or making the wrong choice
How society's messages about purpose can trigger obsessive thinking
Why community is core medicine for OCD and ROCD
Expansion doesn't have to mean leaving your partner behind — it can mean opening to more love and authenticity right where you are.  Join our October Masterclass on Expansion at Awaken into Life  Learn more about ROCD and find support at rocdcourse.com

In this deeply personal episode, Kiyomi reflects on the journey that began in 2017 with her first vulnerable video about Relationship OCD (ROCD). She shares how that one act of courage has grown into a global movement through Awaken into Love, helping thousands find words for their pain and a path toward healing.

Kiyomi revisits her journals, old Facebook photos, and memories from 17 years of living with ROCD. She shares how her pain became a portal for transformation—not just for herself, but for thousands of others around the world.

She introduces the four core pillars of Awaken into Love: Humanness – Embracing the shared experience of suffering and healing. Love – Redefining love in its most truthful and unconditional form. Empowerment – Reclaiming your worth and releasing the shame and hyper-responsibility often tied to ROCD. Awakening – Using ROCD as a catalyst for growth, connection, and purpose.

Kiyomi opens up about stepping back from the spotlight, expanding the team with incredible coaches, and continuing to grow behind the scenes. She speaks of healing, her now-thriving relationship, and becoming a mother—proof that life can radically transform.

She ends with a loving invitation to join the free 31-Day "Back to Love" Challenge, a journey she's taking alongside the community to reconnect with love, self-compassion, and hope.
https://free.rocdcourse.com/backtolove
 ✨ "Your ROCD doesn't define you—it awakens you. You're not alone, and you are right where you're meant to be." ✨
» ROCD FREE CHECKLIST: https://rocdcourse.com/the-checklist
» ROCD/RA ACADEMY (COURSE): https://rocdcourse.com/
» AIL HOME (PEER-SUPPORT): https://rocdcourse.com/peer-support

Disclaimer: All of the information listed in this channel is for informative, motivational, and educational purposes only. Please note that this channel is not meant to diagnose you or treat a mental health disorder but serves only as education and motivation. #ROCD, #Relationshipocd, #Relationshipanxiety, #OCD #anxiety #mentalhealth #love

🎙 In this powerful and vulnerable episode of the Awaken into Love Podcast, Manon sits down with Isla, a graduate of the ROCD course and former member of HOME, our peer support group (formerly known as KIC).

From a small seaside town in Scotland, Isla opens up about her six-year journey with ROCD, retroactive jealousy OCD, neurodivergence (ADHD and exploring autism), and the hidden grief beneath obsessive thoughts. She shares how ROCD impacted all of her long-term relationships, how not knowing what she was experiencing made her feel broken, and how finally putting a name to it transformed her entire life.

Through somatic healing, inner child work, and the power of community, Isla has learned to live with tenderness — toward her thoughts, her younger self, and her relationship. 💛

This is a story of healing, awakening, and becoming whole — not in spite of ROCD, but through it.

» ROCD FREE CHECKLIST: https://rocdcourse.com/the-checklist
» ROCD/RA ACADEMY (COURSE): https://rocdcourse.com/
» AIL HOME (PEER-SUPPORT): https://rocdcourse.com/peer-support

Disclaimer: All of the information listed in this channel is for informative, motivational, and educational purposes only. Please note that this channel is not meant to diagnose you or treat a mental health disorder but serves only as education and motivation.